Lost Lake Whistler - water barely above freezing. It feels so wrong and also so right.
I've committed to plunge daily.
I'm immersing in the outrageous to remember what it is to be human. That's a thing I like to do. By facing the very unpleasant, I recognize that it's actually quite fine. When I step into the terrifying cold, I get to experience eternal okayness. My body and soul confirm that I am alive and well.
Then I feel impervious! I celebrate that I have the agency to choose.
Life is more than a series of good moments and bad ones. Being truly alive means having a wonderful openness to what is beyond that. Let's go there.
A month ago I made a decision to stop pretending. I was in a very dark place and I needed to fish myself out. I had been pushing away the reality that my relationship was failing, and I was hiding from the pain that it obviously wasn't going where I wanted it to go.
Somehow, I left.
It was very sad. But it was right.
I'm committed to getting back to living with honest, down-to-earth joy. And I'm willing to take care of myself first, even when it means letting go of something that I love. I'm slowly reconnecting with the quiet wisdom my body eternally whispers. I'm remembering what it means to listen, and to feel.
I am willing to go through this pain because I know that it's unavoidable. Pain is a fair emotion on the spectrum of my life. And I want to hit that spectrum at every angle and in every colour.
Onwards. With headlamps and clear light. With hashtags for clarity, presence and truth.
RETREAT July 6-8 in the Sea to Sky Retreat Centre - Living from Love
FREE MOVEMENT WORKSHOP May 5th Whistler on feeling your inner joy
SOBER SUMMITS May 26th hiking for the fun of it in Whistler WANDERLUST Aug 2-6 in Whistler - for Prancing Your Heart Out
BLACK ROCK CITY Aug 26- Sept 2 - Free Movement and Lifing so Hard